I suffered brain damage due to a subarachnoid hemorrage after a ruptured brain aneurysm in December 2009. This has had an impact on my cognitive skills as well as short-term memory. I will be zooming along just fine when unexpectedly my "apple cart" gets upset and everything tumbles out... including me. I am much less confident about myself than I was in November 2009. I can't fully trust my memory, I can't fully trust my understanding and perception of things and I know it.
I am very thankful for the people in my life take the time to patiently help me get my "apple cart" back up where it belongs. I am grateful that they help me pick up all my "apples" and try to arrange them so they will not spill out as easily the next time. They are a blessing from God!
Whenever God allows something unpleasant to take place, you can be sure that He will take the unpleasantness and transform it into something for your good. Often times that is difficult to see but that doesn't mean it is not so.
One of the lessons I have learned from all of this is that I definitely cannot trust in my own wisdom. It is defective and I know it. I am fully aware that I am "broken" both physically and mentally. If family and friends lovingly and patiently help me, then God who created and loves me even more surely will!
The Bible says:
Stop deceiving yourselves. If you think you are wise by this world’s standards, you need to become a fool to be truly wise.
For the wisdom of this world is foolishness to God. As the Scriptures say,
“He traps the wise in the snare of their own cleverness.”
And again,“The Lord knows the thoughts of the wise; he knows they are worthless.”
1 Corinthians 3:18-20 (NLT)
Spiritually, we were all broken mentally and physically. Without the Holy Spirit, our wisdom, our understanding is impaired. We cannot, we must not attempt to lean on our own wisdom and understanding. Instead, we must diligently seek His. This is not an optional. We must do it.
Photo Credit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/aldrin_muya/3217536037/
I have come across different articles and a sermon that point to this truth. "Lean not to thine own understanding but in all thy ways acknowledge Him." I have noticed numerous times that the Spirit seems to blow in the same direction with many different believers. God bless you.
Thank you for sharing this, K .
Your testimony of God's greatness and mercy, as you have personally experienced it, is one of the most touching testimonies any one could have the privilege of knowing. God Bless you always!