I stood beside my bed after turning off the light. It had been a long day and I was tired but I did not want to lie down. My body cried out for sleep and yet I still stood there staring down at my bed through the darkness.
I have little memory of that night when I laid down to sleep on that bed that almost became the place of my demise but I do retain enough fragments to make me reluctant to go to bed at times. This was one of those times.
There it was. Fear was banging at my door. It was banging rather loudly actually. I tried to remember that God had kept me safe that night but oh... I still did not want to lie down and go to sleep.
I wonder if David felt like that sometimes as he wandered about in the Judean Wilderness, fleeing the wrath of King Saul? While it is true that he had weapons and men to protect him, I believe that at times, like me, he also wondered if he would be alive the next morning.
I love the Book of Psalms. I often find solace and strength in it's beautiful words.
7 I will bless the Lord who guides me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
8 I know the Lord is always with me.
I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.
9 No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice.
My body rests in safety.
10 For you will not leave my soul among the dead
or allow your holy oneto rot in the grave.
11 You will show me the way of life,
granting me the joy of your presence
and the pleasures of living with you forever.
Psalm 16:7-11 (NLT)
I am reminded that though I may be weak and "vulnerable", even when I sleep, God is watching over me and I can rest in Him.
There will indeed come a day when my physical body will experience "sleep" for all eternity. When that happens however, I won't be trapped inside.
Jesus Christ has revealed to me, "The Way of Life"... Himself! He has given me a glimpse of the joy of God's presence and a taste of the pleasures of living with Him while I am yet in this world. Though I cannot imagine it, I remember that I have nothing to fear. I am resting in God's hands and... the very BEST is yet to be!
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Fear not for He is with you always. Even until the end of the world.
So glad you made it through the night. You shall find rest.
I read this blog last evening and it stayed with me throughout the night. I was so touched... I said a prayer for you each time it (you) came to mind. I know, too, K, that "every" blog you write is for the glory of God, but "this one" spoke to my heart in a uniquely different way. The night poses for us a completely different ambiance; and sometimes even its onset sets the stage for "fear" to sabotage our minds regarding our past experiences, especially before we lie down to rest. But I love how you dealt with it: through the word. The word is our spiritual weapon.
I often think of how Jesus used "the word" against Satan when he was tempted of him.
[b][u][i]KJV[/i] , Matthew 4[/u]: (3 - 10)[/b]
[b]3[/b] - And when the tempter came to him, he said, If thou be the Son of God, command that these stones be made bread.
(Jesus' response) - [b]4[/b] But he answered and said, [u][b]It is written[/b] [/u], Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.
[b]5[/b] Then the devil taketh him up into the holy city, and setteth him on a pinnacle of the temple, [b]6[/b] And saith unto him, If thou be the Son of God, cast thyself down : for it is written, He shall give his angels charge concerning thee : and in [i]their[/i] hands they shall bear thee up, lest at any time thou dash thy foot against a stone. [b]7[/b] Jesus said unto him, [b][u]It is written[/u] [/b] again, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.
[b]8[/b] Again, the devil taketh him up into an exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the kingdoms of the world, and the glory of them ; [b]9[/b] And saith unto him, All these things will I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship me. [b]10[/b] Then saith Jesus unto him, Get thee hence, Satan : for [b]it is written[/b], Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve.
You've obviously learned the lesson of using God's word as your defense, and in doing so are reminding us of a great lesson to practice.
Blessings to you always, K ! Your testimony of the marvelous works of God in your life is "always" a blessing, and thank you so much for the reminder below:
[quote]I am reminded that though I may be weak and "vulnerable", even when I sleep, God is watching over me and I can rest in Him.[/quote]
[quote]The word is our spiritual weapon.[/quote]
Yes it is!
Another verse I call to mind is:
[quote]I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.
Psalm 4:8 (NIV)[/quote]
It is critical that we etch God's Word into our heart and mind. I believe it is important that we keep visual reminders around us of what God's Word says as well. For example, the little pink boxing gloves I'm staring at right now, off to the left of my computer monitor serve to remind me that I am more than a conqueror through Jesus Christ. (Romans 8:37 and 1 Corinthians 15:57). They remind me that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).