I feel like I've just managed to crawl up out of a very turbulent sea and I'm now trying to catch my breath on the shore. The waves are reaching for me threatening to pull me back in but I'm just beyond their reach. This is what it feels like after chemotherapy is over. A lot of people would have said it was when my treatment ended on Friday. However, it wasn't over yet. The drug still had to go through my body, destroying cells one last time. My body still had to recuperate and rebuild the damaged areas. My digestive system has to repair itself. Hair and nails need to begin to grow properly again. Nerves have to be repaired. White and red blood cells have to be manufactured at an accelerated rate. More platelets have to be manufactured as well. Plus, my heart has to begin to regenerate itself as well so it can work at full capacity once again. My body can't say "Whew! That was rough. I'm going on vacation now!" To do so would put me at risk of illness and possibly even death. My body can't even go back to business as usual at this time simply because that won't get the job done.
As Christians, we can expect to be under some form of attack at all times. Sometimes it's a very aggressive attack which takes on the form of difficulties in every day life. Sometimes it wears much more subtle garments such as complacency. We cannot forget that we have an adversary which seeks to destroy us. 8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 1 Peter 5:8-9 (NIV)
Strangely enough, if we are not careful we can be lulled into taking a spiritual vacation after fighting a battle. "Whew! I got the victory that time. Wow! I wonder if God saw how faithful I was. That was a tough battle and I did a good job. Not everyone would have done as well as I did. I can take on anything." If we are not careful we can become puffed up with pride and have confidence in ourselves rather than in God. We let our weapons slide down to our sides. We may even take off some or all of that heavy armor. We don't think we need it because we can handle anything. We're all done fighting (because everything will fall before us of course) and we're just going to casually stroll into heaven at our own leisure.
If we're off on vacation when the Bridegroom comes, we'll be like the five foolish virgins and miss him. I don't want to be on vacation when He calls my name, I want to be found busy working for Him!
58Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. 1 Corinthians 15:58 (NIV)
My heart goes out to you, kreynolds. What a huge physical battle you are waging. I have prayed for you as I write this comment. Thanks too for the spiritual application. How true and with Christ at our side, " we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us." Phil 4 v 13