Dear Brothers and Sisters In Christ,
I'm heading in for surgery this morning. I just wanted to take the time to thank all of you for the support I've received from you during this time of uncertainty. Some of you have directly given me support. Others have provided support unknowingly through your blogs. I have received so much strength and encouragement as I have read your words. I've read of your struggles and fears. That reminds me that these things fall upon everyone. It doesn't matter who you are, what you do, what your financial status is or what your beliefs are. We live in this world and we are subjected to the things within it.
The good news is we are not alone! When we follow Christ, we are walking with him. He fearlessly goes with us. There is no pit too deep or dark for him! There is no darkness that he cannot penetrate! He is aware of every breath we take as well as every thought, fear and dream. When we cry, he weeps with us. When we laugh, he rejoices in our laughter. When we fall down, he is standing by with outstretched arms to pick us up, hold us, wipe away our tears and set us on our feet again.
There are those who scoff at this idea of Christianity. That saddens me because a true father does not only discipline his children, he holds them in his arms and loves them. A true father's love is not based on what his child does. His child pleases him when they do well, however, a true father still loves their child even when the child is unloveable. A true father's love remains even when the child grieves them. He does everything in his power to set the child's feet on the right path. He never gives up on them.
While far too many people have not had true fathers in this fallen world, there are those who have witnesses this father-heart either through their own father or spiritual fathers God has provided them with. They know exactly what I am talking about. Jesus called God "Our Father". These weren't empty words. I lost my earthly father when I was 16. I am so glad that I have a heavenly father!
I've read about your joys and victories. These serve as reminders that Jesus is Victor over every situation. God is bigger than... .(insert here)! We have been given life more abundantly not just in the future but in the present.
We need to remember that we are all in this together. It is easy to feel isolated. I just wanted to thank everyone for opening their hearts and sharing with others. It has gotten me through some very tough moments.
*8/18/11--This blog is now part of a series entitled Walking With God In The Midst of Cancer
Thank you for your post..God is an awesome father and one I am GLAD to have in my life. I already know that you will make a full recovery after your surgery and be better than ever! God Bless..
Dear sister, we are united in prayer for you.
God's glory will be shown through this, as already has been through your faith and ability to abide in JOY despite your circumstances.
I'm praying for you, too, complete recovery! Your blog is similar to our bible study lesson this morning where Peter walked on water. So long as he was focused on Jesus, he could walk on water, do the impossible. But when he took his eyes off the Savior and looked at the circumstances, he began to sink.
Stay focused on the Savior, dear one!
I am full of thanksgiving tonight, Only two lymph nodes were removed and the preliminary results indicate that they are negative for cancer! I'll have the final results within a few days as well as the stage of the cancer. I had been a bit concerned because I had already known I had an enlarged lymph node but the MRI had suggested that was just the way I was. It looks like it was correct. Also, the tumor was what is known as "triple negative" (no hormone receptors) and grade 3 which meant it is generally an agressive cancer. There was a very good chance it had spread.
I learned my surgery took longer than usual. It seems that when the lab received my sample, they had a difficult time finding the tumor. My surgeon had to leave surgery and actually go find it for them. They didn't lose the sample, mind you, they just couldn't find the tumor. I'd understood that the tumor was 2.0-2.5 cm. That's not huge but I'd think they would have been able to find it. I'd been told previously that the actual tumor-size might be smaller than what was showing up on the ultrasound and mammograms. I guess it was. I'll find out in a few days.
I have never done well with anesthesia. I was really praying about that. God really helped me through that. I only had a couple of minor upsets when I first moved and walked. I actually ended up going out for dinner about 5:00 tonight on the way home from the hospital. That's amazing for me. Other than sleeping a lot, I seem to be doing fine. Praise God!
Thank you so much for your prayers and words of encouragement!
Praise God for the good report! I can't believe you went out to dinner, WOW, too much! Continuing to pray sister! Sleep away and we look forward to seeing the Lord's magnicient hand in all this. Love ya, Andrea