Earlier today while writing a blog comment, I found myself digging around in the "attic" here at CB. I sat in front of the trunk marked K blogs and opened the lid. I rummaged around a bit until I found what I was looking for. It was a blog written back on December 7, 2007. It is called Being In God's Hand As It Passes Through Cancer? .
Re-reading this blog brought up a lot of emotions. I'd been a member of CB for four months but hadn't been around much after school had started that September. In the midst of my fear and uncertainty, God gently reminded me that He had brought me here and let me know that it was for such a time as this.
The blog was written four days after I learned I had a spiculating mass and the morning after I had the diagnostic ultrasound. Cancer would not be confirmed until six days later and then I would learn that I had Infiltrating Ductal Carcinoma, Triple Negative. While normally you want tests to be negative, you do not want to be triple negative when it comes to breast cancer.
As I re-read that blog I wrote two years ago while awaiting my diagnosis, I realize how much God was preparing me for the battle I would face. In that blog I wrote:
God was ready and waiting for me of course. I can already see that. He knew exactly how I would react. I wouldn't hide it and I would start seeking support immediately. God immediately began to bring amazing people across my path. These are people who have walked this path before, people who have walked with others along this path, prayer warriors, etc. They in turn are sharing with their friends (strangers to me) and it goes on and on. I'm completely awed by this.
God gives us what we need when we need it. I am not asking a question. I am making a statement. It is a statement that I have proved over and over again since I started walking with Him as a young girl. This is a truth we must embrace if we are to walk the road of life as a victor instead of as a victim.
To tell you the truth, in spite of what some people claim, I have never known a single person who has not faced some sort of discomfort, trouble or sorrow in this life. Have you? Even Jesus himself experienced sorrow and suffering!
Oh, but He is bigger than any sorrow! He is bigger than any pain! Jesus is Victor and we are alive in Him! Oh, I pray that we will remember that because of Him we do not have to be victims of our circumstances; rather because of Him, we are victors over them!
We often suffer, but we are never crushed. Even when we don't know what to do, we never give up. In times of trouble, God is with us, and when we are knocked down, we get up again. We face death every day because of Jesus. Our bodies show what his death was like, so that his life can also be seen in us. 2 Corinthians 4:8-11 (CEV)
It is my prayer that my life will be a testimony of the power of God, in every circumstance I face. It is my prayer that will be true of all of us so that the world may truly know Him.
Awesome message K
Thank you for this message and your testimony to go along with it. I won't take up time here to go into details, but my mom was a religious person, but not a Christian when she went through her battle with cancer and oh how her story differs from yours.
Praise the Lord that He is a God who wants and allows us to be intimate with Him through Jesus!
Your testimony and your journey are amazing, K. You are a tremendous support and inspiration to many.