My last four chemo treatments involved a drug called Taxol. For most breast cancer patients, Taxol is a relief after the horrors of Adriamycin/Cytoxan. However, in 20% of the patients, Taxol causes pain receptors to misfire and you got it... pain for which there is NO relief. There is absolutely nothing they can do for you. One must wait it out. A few people also have this sort of reaction to Neulasta which is a drug given to cancer patients to stimulate the production of white blood cells because chemo brings your white blood cell count dangerously low. Most people tolerate Neulasta "okay" but for some it causes excruciating pain... in the bone marrow. If you have never felt pain in your bone marrow, trust me... it is one experience you want to miss!
I was "fortunate" enough to have this sort of reaction to both drugs so when Taxol and Neulasta got together in my body... it was not pretty.
The one thing which helped get me through that horror was the knowledge that my pain was drug-induced and there would be a time when my oncologist would say... "No more". Oh what a day that was when my oncologist told me that chemo was finished!
You cannot possibly know the joy I experienced unless you have endured the horror of chemo. It was over!
There is coming a day when God will say "No more." When my oncologist said "No more." he did not mean I would never, ever have to endure chemo again for he cannot guarantee there will never be a recurrence. In fact, I must get checked out again next Friday. Sigh... My oncologist only meant, I was finished with chemo treatment and now we'd watch and wait.
When God says "No more" He means "NO MORE." Oh how much sweeter it will be to have endured sorrow and suffering and then have it lifted, not just for the moment but forever and always! What a day that will be!
What a day that will be when my Jesus I will see
when I look upon his face, the one who saved me by his grace
He will take me by the hand
And lead me through the promised land
What a day, glorious day that will be
You got me all excited and praising today.
I rejoice with you! :)
And am so excited for that day, too!
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.- 2 Corinthians 4:17
Hugz* & Blessings,