The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control
--From I Want To Be In The Light by Charlie Peacock
I will never forget when I first learned about the tumor. It started out as an ordinary day. We'd had a wonderful belated birthday celebration for me just the night before. I remember thinking as I went to bed the night before how much God had blessed me. Life was good! I didn't realize there was a deadly disease lurking within my breast and if it wasn't found and stopped, well there was a very good chance I would not be sitting here writing this right now.
I did not want to hear about it. I wanted someone to tell me it was a mistake! I wanted someone to tell me it was just fine! I did not want to endure the pain and disfigurement of surgery. I did not want to be brought to death's doorstep eight times as I underwent dose dense chemotherapy. I did not want to be radiated 33 times and have healthy cells as well as cancer cells destroyed.
Often times chemo treatment is so traumatic that patients have strong reactions to anything associated with it. My oncologist told me that he once ran into a former patient of his downtown. It had been four years since she had seen him. She happily went over to greet him and then... promptly became ill while shaking his hand in greeting.
While I do not have that happen, I understand. Whenever I go in to see him, I become very hyper, just like I did while I was in treatment. Once I see him, I am fine but just prior to that...
He tells me I am "normal".
We were all born with a disease far more deadly than cancer called sin. Sometimes this disease is very obvious but most of the time, it is sneaky like cancer. It is so easy to pretend it isn't there for you see, we don't like to be confronted by it.
Often times we will try a lot of "home remedies". We can beat this. We know we can. God's way seems too uncomfortable for we must admit that we need a Savior. We must admit that we cannot do this on our own. We must admit that sin will destroy us and in order to destroy it we must throw down all of our defenses and bare our soul to God.
In order to remove cancer from the body, extreme measures must be taken. You cannot continue on as if it is not there. Ignoring it will not make it go away. You can't simply get plenty of rest and drink lots of fluids. You can't take a pill and it is gone in the morning. You can't just wait until it runs it's course for when it crosses the finish line... you will be dead. You must cut it out of you and often use powerful drugs and radiation to kill any remaining cancer cells. As I told my oncologist, cancer treatment goes against everything doctors instinctively want to do. Normally you feel better after being treated by a doctor. When you are treated for cancer, you feel worse...
I get watched a lot. I have to go in for screenings which look for any return of cancer. I have to see my oncologist a couple of times a year. You see, while there is currently no evidence of disease, I am at risk for recurrence so we watch for signs that it is trying to regain a foothold in my body.
As Christians, we must never forget that the enemy is constantly trying to regain a foothold in our lives. That is why we must constantly be on our guard by applying the Word of God to our lives and allowing the Holy Spirit to examine us.
While my oncologist can never guarantee that I will not have a recurrence of cancer, the blood of Jesus completely removes the cancer of sin from my soul.
What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Romans 7:24-25a (NIV)
Let us never forget the price that was paid for our salvation... the blood of our precious Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!
Really enjoyed this one, K. As horrible as cancer is, to be un-cured of spiritual death, is far worse. And, of course, putting self, for the Christian, ahead of God. Thank You, God Bless, Billy
[quote]As Christians, we must never forget that the enemy is constantly trying to regain a foothold in our lives. That is why we must constantly be on our guard by applying the Word of God to our lives and allowing the Holy Spirit to examine us.[/quote]
K, you have no idea how amazing this particular blog entry is, for so many reasons. Thank you, thank you, thank you.