I went top-less today at school. Now before you get the wrong idea, I have to let you know that is chemo-survivor slang for going out in public without a covering on your head such as a wig, scarf or my personal favorite which is a hat.
While this is probably not a big deal to most men, it is pretty tramatic for most women. I shaved my head the middle of March. That was the last time I allowed anyone outside of my immediate family to see the top of my head unless they were a member of the medical profession. I loosened up a bit in August and allowed carefully selected individuals to have the honor of seeing my head. I loosened up a bit more in September and set today as the day I would go top-less at school.
I did a test run a week ago Sunday at Chick Night which is the monthly women's meeting at my church. That's where I first wore a cap in public and that's where I chose to bare my soul...I mean scalp. About 300-500 women go to Chick Night and if you can bare your scalp there, you can do it anywhere. I was a hit even though my hair is only about 1/2 inch long and has come in decidedly more gray than when it went out.
So, today I took the plunge. I was nervous to say the least. I'd forewarned my students but no one ever knows exactly how seven and eight year olds will react. I have to say, things went very well. The kids actually loved my new look. People stopped me in the hall and complimented me. Perhaps they were just being very kind but I'll take it!
All of this exposure got me to thinking. While people had complimented me on my hats, I noticed a difference when they were complimenting something which was actually a part of the real me. I also noticed that I reacted differently as well. They were noticing and appreciating the real me. I walked a little straighter and taller. My smile was a bit bigger. I glowed a bit more. I got more of a spring in my step. I was accepted just the way I was and they let me know I had nothing to be ashamed of.
Far too often we want to hide the real us. I guess we get it from Adam and Eve. The problem is God sees the real us and best of all, he loves the real us. After all, he created us. He takes us just the way we are. That's not to say he doesn't want us to be the best that we can be. He does but that doesn't mean he loves us less when we aren't. I take my students as they are but I don't want them to stay where they are. I want them to become the best they can be. God is exactly the same way.
So, dare to take off the covering, stand up and let the world see the real you. Believe it or not, we need you!
Congrats for your bravery!
I am reminded that rather than a hat to cover what our head/hair looks like, most of us go through life with a mask on . . . not wanting people to see the "real" us. May we all be as transparent as you!Gracie
I commend you in your bravery. We pray for your complete recovery. Amen.
Hi K! Awesome blog. Thank you for sharing from your heart. I pray God blesses you mightily for your faithfulness. K-bird
Hi K! Thank you for your openness. God bless you mightily. K-Bird
Amen K.. thanks for encouraging me once again with such a heart felt blog. You amaze me girl!
nice.. and good