shani blows the dust off this one
Hey there K, im back up in the attic again and came across this baby! I, like yourself, read psalm 139 and become so overwhelmed with what it says. So many times in my life, ive run with all my might to try and flee from where anyone can see me and see the humiliation, guilt, Shame and broken mess my life has been.So often, ive tried to hide it so no one can reach me and see that i dont actually have it all together. then i go ahead and read a blog like this and think, just like your blog title, Shani, You can run, but you cant hide.
thanks for this one! time it comes back out of the attic to bless some more people :)
lov ya K!
Oh Shani, this is old! I looked at the date on this one and it was written on January 6, 2008. I'm sitting here now, remembering what I was experiencing when I wrote that. Just a few weeks before I wrote this blog, I learned that I had breast cancer. I remember the utter helplessness I was feeling when I wrote this for I was still awaiting a date for my surgery. I wanted to crawl into a hole and hide from everyone... including God. The pain of it all was so bad and the fear would try to overwhelm me. It didn't help that the enemy was working overtime trying to show me "home movies" of all of my failures. The last thing he wanted me to do was go into treatment with the unshakable knowledge that I was a princess of God.
Confronted by these things, I tried to do just what he hoped and attempt to "hide"... but God pursued me and though you can run... you can't hide from Him!