A Closer Walk With Thee

"Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy, to God our Savior, who alone is wise, be now and forever. Amen." (Jude 24-25 NKJV).

I don't know about you, but I can worry about worrying.

Pathetic, I get it.

Yep. I've been guilty of carrying heavy loads of burdens ranging from completing mundane chores to keeping my spiritual disciplines (praying, bible study etc.) current. In fact, I've made my load even heavier by creating lists: To do lists, priority lists, urgent lists etc. Some lists were mental and some were meticulously created. What I figured out though, I created these lists because I was afraid. Afraid of failing. Afraid of Not being perfect. Afraid that everyone would see the scared, insecure me. Afraid of NOT being in control. Therefore, I availed myself to serve and be a slave to the heavy taskmaster of fear.

In its wicked stronghold, fear tormented my thinking with negativity, overthinking and endless scenarios of "what ifs". Almost always I was motivated to do just about any task or activity with an added dose of anxiety coupled with a false sense of security. I was tricked into believing peace would come only when and if I accomplished everything on my mental and physcial check-off lists.

And then it started to unravel.

After years living this way, I became tired, weary even. Tasks that I could do simply, with little effort started to become more hectic and laborious. I began to notice I felt empty after doing the "right" things; praying felt like a chore and I dreaded reading the Bible.

In my heart I knew this wasn't good. But, I continued the lifestyle because it was my normal. True LIVING was so far out of my reach that I settled for EXISTING.

Existing in the midst of fear. Then came along:

Stress.

Anxiety.

Worry.

Doubt.

Unbelief.

Hesitation.

Perfectionism.

Migraines.

Digestive issues.

What have YOU settled for today?

Today, Jesus wants to meet YOU at your greatest need. He wants to touch you and heal the broken places in your soul that makes you want to settle for less than what He desires to give you.

Read the words that Jesus provides to the weary:

"Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear and the burden I give you is light. (Matthew 11:28 NLT)

In this passage, I understand that all Jesus wants is me. Me with all of my flaws. He doesn't care about my to-do lists, my failures, my accomplishments, the number of blogs I've written, all the "good" things I've done; and not done. Once I come to Him, He promises to teach me in His humble and gentle ways how to live an abundant life. Hallelujah!

A promise for ME.

And YOU.

I'm on a journey to greater intimacy with Jesus. The "Lover of our Souls" desires to compel His precious ones into a relationship based on His grace and not works. Grace does for His children what we could never do for ourselves; save ourselves from eternal death. He did that and provided us the freedom from every kind of bondage. All we have to do is make a choice to follow Jesus.

I would like to pray for you:

Dear Jesus,

My friend that is reading this desires to know, follow and become more committed to pursuing you. You said, that who ever calls on the name of the Lord, will be saved. Save my friend from anything that may hinder a closer walk with you. Remove every obstacle that would distract, discourage or interfere with their pursuit of You. Thank you for Your promise to provide rest for our souls. All these things I pray, in Jesus' name, Amen.

 Kristen Gray
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Beth+

I don't know about you, but I can worry about worrying.

I am a list-maker too!

They can be good, but they can also be what you portrayed!

Been there, done that.

:thumbs_up:

So good to see you!

Kristen Gray+

Thanks! Just been sooooo busy these days... Started a new role at work so that has me putting in time catching up on things.
It is always so good to sit down in the quiet and allow God to speak to my heart. He is truly a wonder!

Sarah VM

Yeah ... as a 'lister' myself, I realise that lists are good, up until the point where you are no longer the owner of the lists: the lists own you. :doh:

A form of bondage, as you say, from which Christ sets us free! :dance:

I am really thankful to God for setting me free from obsessing over plotting and planning things down to the tiniest detail: the day I realised HE was in charge around here, and not me, was the greatest relief. "Come to me... " - yes, this is the verse which sums it up so well.

Thanks for the blog and all the best with your new role in your job.

God bless,
Sarah

Les B+

How I too recall the bondage of "to do" lists as Kirsten even points here ... reading Scripture X chapters or amount of time. Same with prayer.

Amazing all God really wants is a relationship (which the above DIRECTED by the Holy Spirit provide) of love through Christ. In the human soul, how easy to fall back into performance (what I do) based "Christianity.

So thankful God grace in Christ is much more than I.

Thank you for the word Kirsten.

In Him,
Les