Things I Can't Imagine
At 23 I found myself pregnant, unmarried, and scared out of my mind. I had no idea how to be a mom. Now I can't imagine life without the young man he has become. I was divorced 7 years ago and left to raise my two kids mostly on my own, but I had my parents.I can't imagine going though that time in my life without the support of my parents.
During that time I was lost and desolate but I can't imagine what my life would have been like if I hadn't gone through those dark days. I made many bad decisions in that darkness, but with the help of some true friends I realized where my focus needed to be, on my children. I can't imagine what life would be like today if I hadn't had those friends to support and gently show me the way back when I had hit rock bottom.
Years later I met an awesome guy who I now get to call my husband. I can'timagine what my life would've been like if God had not brought us together. He is my best friend, I can talk to him about anything. I simply can't imagine life without him. We had an opportunity to get away for the weekend. We're tucked away in quaint little town at a bluegrass festival with lots of fun people, but I can't imagine being here without him. I used to come here when I was single but now I get to come with him. I heard it said that marriage is like the art of dancing, when you first start dancing with someone, it's kind of awkward, you don't really follow each other and you just kind of waddle back and forth. But, after a few years with the same partner you just know each other and you float around the floor. Last night we were dancing and I was amazed at how well we "floated" together. I can't imagine dancing with anyone else.
I have faced many challenges in my life and all of those were tiny stepping stones that brought me to this wonderful place where I find myself now. I am grateful to my God for bringing me here. I can't imagine walking this journey, through this life without Him. Without knowing that He is here to hold me up when the trials come and He is here to celebrate with me in the times of Joy. I am certain my future holds many challenges that will continue to shape my life for the better, to bring my life from awesome to awe-inspiring. I can't imagine going through life with out God. I can't imagine walking through this world without knowing the sacrifice He made for me, for my husband, for my children.
My life had been filled with many dark days but beautiful sunrises. Here I sit today reflecting on all of them with a clear understanding of how each trial made me stronger.I can't imagine what life would've been like if I hadn't gone through my first divorce or I hadn't had that beautiful boy when I was 23 and single.I simply can't imagine. If your going through a dark time take comfort in knowing that the darkness eventually gets brighter, if only a little at a time. And out of that mess, that sadness, that desolation God will bring you to a place you never would've imagined!
"The Lord directs the steps of the Godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand." Psalms 37:23-24 (NLT)
I have said that the past eight years of my life has been the darkest and most difficult period of my life but at the same time, I have also said that as rough as it has been, I would not have missed this ride for the world. Why? Because it is during this same time that I have seen God do the most amazing things, met the most amazing people and so forth. Truly God does turn our darkness into light.