Dear Brother In Christ,
I could honestly call you my brother in Christ today, not because of what you claim to be, or even because you are a son of a pastor. I call you a brother because you have shown the fruits of the spirit in everything you have done while in my presence.
Because of this, we both have the confidence of salvation given to us by our Wonderful Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
As I see you going though your "ups and downs" of like, its very noticeable that you still are trusting feelings rather then Gods Word. Many of us that latch on to our own feelings and expectation tend to take our eyes off the LORD and sink, even when they think they are doing the right thing. It reminds me of Peter who walked on water. He clearly was doing something right, but he then took his eyes of the Lord. We all know what happened next.
We cannot base our walk on our emotions and feelings. Just by speaking to you I see that you're a very emotional person. Hence, the poetry writing that is filled with passion and full of feelings.
Our feelings will sometimes tell us that we are not "good enough" that we are "not worthy enough" that we are "not saved" we are not "working enough for GOD". The last one seems to match what you have been telling me. We must work for God because of what he did for us, not because we feel that we must, in someway, pay Him back for what He has done in our lives. We can never pay him enough. But we must rest in the fact of the Work that HE DID COMPLETE on the CROSS. He died on that cross to make us perfect in His eyes. It might take some time before he stand in front of him someday, or it might be today, but sooner or later we will all be in front of our Lord and he will see us the way he always Has.
Brother, It might take some time for us to see ourselves the way God sees us. We are not perfect here now and will not be until we enter eternity. We will continue to fall and make mistakes, and yes, we still fall short of what God would like us to do. Nevertheless, we have a loving a gracious God who loves us so much and continues to mold us into the image of His Son. So lets continue to be molded. Jesus knows us better then anyone else, including ourselves. He knows where and when you will fall. These are the times that we mold us the most. However, sometimes we must submit and allow God to work in and through us.
My brother I leave you know with these words of biblical wisdom and I pray that they will help you in your growth and walk and any other who read these words today.
1. Repent and confess to God ( 1John1:9)
2. Determine to Forsake Any Known Sin in Your Life (Proverbs 28:13)
3. Make Right Any Known Wrongs (Acts 24:16)
4. Renewed Fellowship will be the result ( 1Jn 1:7)
Your Brother In Christ,