What do you see Lord

What do you see Lord?

As I was reading yesterday, I came across Gracie's blog about taking a good long hard look in the mirror.
My reaction was, No Thanks. I know what I see in the mirror and it isn't pretty. But I went and looked anyway.
It's a good thing hubby was gone shopping or he would have called those guys with the white coats for sure.
And this is what I saw.
A tired fat old woman, whose hair has turned white and who's beauty left years ago. I see the lines of years of rejection and loneliness. The pain of loves and loved ones lost for reasons never understood. I see the toll of the years of abuse to my body. I see the pain I've caused my children and family. I see the bitterness that grew from these things.
I ask the Lord, What is it you see Lord? What do you see here thats was worth keeping? What good can I be to you now? I have wasted my youth and my energies on the foolishness of the world. What possible good am I now?

This morning I woke up with this little chorus in my heart and mind -over and over and over. I even posted it in the chat room as a morning greeting.

"Who will I send"
Her I am Lord
Is it I Lord
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord
If you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart

When I look in the mirror, I see a useless wasted life - because I see the FLESH.

God does not see the flesh or the sins that haunt me -My Lord sees only the HEART!

Even though the body is broken the spirit is well and God can use broken bodies!

Her I am Lord
Is it I Lord
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord
If you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart

Lord show me this day what I can do for you.

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