So the last time I wrote a blog I was finishing recounting my journey over the past few months which consisted of a lot of temptation and struggling in my relationship with God, but a lot of learning too. I just wanted to write a short update and a thank you.
When I wrote my last blog, which was way back at the beginning of March, I was reflecting on how strong God was, and thanking Him for all that He had already done, whilst asking for prayer to continue to grow closer to God and hopefully conquer the troubles I'd been having, in his power. I confess I didn't really expect to have no troubles after the couple of months that I had. I expected to continue on in the same fashion as I had before, cyclically giving into temptation for a time before being pulled out of it by God, but something happened after writing that blog, and I haven't had a single struggle since then!
I honestly wouldn't have thought that (for now at least), the temptation would just stop and I would be free to rebuild my relationship with God, but I am blessed and extremely happy to say that, that is exactly what has happened! I am reading my Bible again, seeing God everywhere I look, worshipping without guilt, and enjoying His company.
I prayed to Him at the beginning of Lent and said I wanted to give the stories up so as I could spend more time with Him, but until half way through Lent, the only thing that had changed was I'd gained a better understanding of His love for me, and I thought I was just going to have to keep trying of I was to give this up fully. I cannot tell you how grateful I am that I literally didn't do anything, and all of the struggling has just fallen away.
So thank you, for your prayers and support, and Praise God! He keeps His promise forever and He is Glorious!
Wonderful news, wonderful testimony!
Use this time as you have suggested to build yourself up in the most holy faith for God in his grace has given you a season of rest.
Thanks everyone, it's been so lovely just waking up and talking to Him instead of goodness knows what! :D