As promised in the sidebar to this series, I will testify to the assignment, mission, commission and goal Jesus has prepared in advance for me to walk in as the age of "The Church" comes to its end.
In the introduction to this series, healing was declared to be the focus of this series. This will most definitely be an important part of these writings. However, please allow me to begin by sharing on the road to Damascus testimony.
Jesus Audibly Spoke My Name Three Times
It was eight years ago Jesus audibly spoke my name the first time. I want you to know what I mean is the voice came from outside of my body. At about 3 a.m. one morning in March of 2001, I was awakened by a soft warm masculine voice that called out my name, Dorothy. I sat straight up fully expecting to see someone standing in front of me. It seemed as if the voice had come from directly in front of me. I experienced no sense of fear. I thought to myself, "Was that God?" It took quite awhile before I was able to go back to sleep.
On Tuesday morning, October 2, 2001, I was "born again" and came into a right relationship with God. On the following Sunday morning, October 7, 2001, I woke up at about 6 a.m. still feeling tired and not ready to consider getting up. Settling back in to get more rest, I reminded myself that I must be sure to wake up no later than 8:30 a.m. in order to get ready and be on time for church. At precisely 8:30 a.m., I was awakened by a soft warm masculine voice that spoke my name directly into my right ear. I was surprised and delighted at the same time, as I believed it was Jesus who had awakened me for church.
Two years later, for the third time Jesus audibly spoke my name directly into my left ear. This happened on Wednesday morning, October 15, 2003. When I was awakened by the soft, but slightly agitated, warm masculine voice, I thought God was upset with me because I had fallen asleep without praying. However, after spending perhaps an hour in prayer, I realized it was October 15th. I had promised God to have accomplished the launching of my first series of letters of testimony by this date.
A few weeks before this date, I had written a letter to the pastor and elders of my local church telling them I was about to launch Gariel Ministries. I wrote about the goal of having the first letter of testimony mailed out by October 15th. I did have the first letter almost completed. Obviously, a great effort was put into finishing the letter and getting it mailed out. The first installment went out on Friday, October 17th.
Hear "The Word"
When Jesus audibly spoke my name these three times, I believed I understood why He spoke my name the first time but did not understand why He had spoken directly into my right ear the second time and my left ear the third time.
On Wednesday, May 14, 2008, the reason was revealed: Jesus spoke my name directly into each ear to open them to Hear The Word of God speak within me and receive understanding through the guiding work of the Holy Spirit.
"He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says unto the Churches. To him who overcomes will I give to eat of the tree of life, which is in the midst of the Paradise of God." Revelation 2:7
On the night when my spirit was quickened and I was "born again," I felt this sense of urgency as if there was something Jesus wanted me to do. I earnestly prayed to know what this was.
The Holy Spirit spoke within me this revelation on Saturday (a Sabbath), October 27, 2001:
Minister to (God’s) Children,
Focus on the Young,
These Little Ones Will Become Lights in the Darkness,
Expose the Work of Satan,
Focus on Eternity,
Evangelistic in Nature,
Nine months later, on Saturday (a Sabbath), July 20, 2002, the Holy Spirit spoke this mission:
A Spiritual Leader
Strengthen "The Church"
Prepare Souls for Eternity
Nine months later, on Saturday (Easter weekend and a Sabbath), April 19, 2003, the Holy Spirit spoke this commission:
When Jesus provides a revelation, He follows it with confirmation. Often, three distinct confirmations are provided. There were three clear confirmations at the time the commission was revealed. They are:
1) Each revelation was spoken on a Sabbath (Saturday) with the commission revealed on Easter weekend.
2) The Holy Spirit spoke each revelation within me in His "still small voice".
3) There was nine months, birthing time, between each Revelation.
There were 38 weeks between the first and second revelation and 39 weeks between the second and third revelation. Totaling 77 weeks. Jesus’ number is 777. As revealed in God’s Word, God consistently uses these numbers 3s, 7s and 40s.
Please take note that this was revealed to me in birthing steps. I have learned when you are chosen for a particular purpose; Jesus will condition and prepare you for His calling. Thus, there will always be a time of preparation. The first seven-year season, which came to its conclusion in the fall of 2008, was both difficult and totally awesome. I learned about God’s character, nature, principles, patterns, ways and will. I experienced His loving chastisement and his not so much fun discipline. He taught what it means to surrender to Him. I went around the same mountain a good number of times. Part of the process is to take self out of you and renew your mind in Christ Jesus. I went from thinking I could do much to the point where I believe I literally can do nothing without Jesus. Some of these experiences will most likely be shared in future blogs. It was also a period of receiving awesome revelation, receiving God’s knowledge and understanding sitting directly under the guidance and teaching of the Holy Spirit. The experiences I have had seem to be part of a step-by-step process to bring me to where I need to be in order to operate in full trust, surrender, dependence and obedience to God and carry out service to Jesus and to God’s children.
Some reading this will say there are no apostles today. I do not know where God’s Word informs us of this. One minister states that a true apostle must have seen Jesus Christ. Paul heard the voice of Jesus speaking to him on the road to Damascus. He was blinded by the bright light. Scales fell from his eyes as he accepted and could see who Jesus is. He was taught directly by the Holy Spirit receiving a good number of revelations. At first, the original apostles were afraid of him. He met with Peter after three years and met with all the original apostles after another 14 years. His first letter, believed to be to the letter to the Church at Thessalonica, was written some 30 years after Jesus called him.
Jesus called out my name three times. He spoke directly into my right ear and then into my left ear to open them to hear His Word speak within me. He brought me these and a number of other revelations. In one vision I saw Jesus standing off in the distance looking at me. He was dressed in sackcloth. Thus far, I have gone through nearly 8 years of preparation and have written periodically letters of testimony to local church leaders since 2002 and to local church members, family and friends since October 2003.
What are apostles today being called to do? I completely believe many are being commissioned directly by Jesus to walk in God’s power doing work to strengthen "The Church" and bring "The Church Age" to its end.
Name of Ministry or Apostle's Name
About two months after receiving the commission revelation, early Sunday morning, June 22, 2003, I had a dream in which I give birth to a tiny baby girl. I give her the name Gariel. At the time, I decided this was the name to use for the ministry I was founding. However, I have always sensed that this is to be the name used when I walk as an apostle of Jesus Christ.
Conception of Birth
Very recently, in early April (2009), my close ministry partner called me and told me she was to deliver this message: "Intimacy with Jesus will bring conception." I was thrilled to hear these words from the Holy Spirit. The waiting period has been rough. The revelations about the assignment, mission and commission came as birthing steps. In a dream I give birth to Gariel. Yes, I believe this is confirmation that birth is near and I will soon, I pray fully, walk in this calling to serve Jesus and God’s children.
When I took on rental space for Gariel Ministries, the cost of setting up and operating a ministry along with a small Christian gift shop weighed heavily upon me. (Note: this project was not what Jesus was calling me to do.) I was earnestly seeking strong confirmation that what I was undertaking was according to and following God’s plan. I relayed the need to fellow volunteers. That very evening, Thursday October 21, 2004, the Holy Spirit provided the confirmation of confirmations concerning the purpose of my calling. He provided the interpretation of a dream I had in 1983 or 1984.
"The dream begins in what appears to be an art museum. I am looking at oil paintings of everyday life. The scene shifts and it is as if I go through doors where I begin walking carefully across a floor filled with souls. I somehow know they are souls. I am trying hard not to step on any of them. All I actually see is what looks like individual bubbles rising up from and going back down into the floor. The floor extends outward a great distance. There seems to be hundreds perhaps thousands of souls in this floor. When I awakened, I felt puzzled. I had not knowingly experienced a dream from God before. I did sense the dream had meaning and significance."
On that Thursday evening, the Holy Spirit drew my attention to this dream and as I reflected upon it, the Holy Spirit spoke these words: 'they are souls in limbo'
As these words were spoken, I knew Jesus had confirmed the very mission of this ministry as stated above. Through the power of the Holy Spirit, believers are to be moved out of a state of limbo into a deeper intimate personal relationship with Jesus Christ. This will strengthen "The Church" and prepare it for the "Removal of the Church." Souls are to be prepared for living in the presence of God for eternity.
Sharing this testimony liberates me making it possible to write more freely and boldly.
Next week, part 2 of series.
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I've been anticipating this series with great interest. You've delivered!
Thank you for sharing with us your very personal journey. A couple of observations, if I may:
God has a plan for each of us. Each plan is unique as each of us are unique. The Spiritual Gifts we are each given are according to His individual, unique plan for each of us.
As wonderful as language is, words such as "apostle" are subject to different meanings and interpretations. In one context, the words of that minister could be considered quite correct. I'll focus on the commission you have been given and not worry about the "label" attached to it.