Well, it’s the New Year, and looking back on the year that's been, boy has it been nuts!
There are things I have done well, like learned a lot about myself and my demons and things I haven't done so well such as kept up on this blog.
I’ve cried and mourned the passing of many stars and celebrities. I've also cried and grieved over the loss of far too many people I know and love. I've seen tragedy and destruction and families break. I've seen friendships thrown away over the most ridiculous things. I've seen the inside of the hospital far too many times and I've been poked, prodded, tested and scanned in an attempt to give my messed up body a real substantial diagnosis. All that being said, I’ve also laughed and laughed at life’s quirks and idiosyncrasies. I have found my support system and use it regularly. I’ve been so low I thought I would never see daylight again. I’ve been on top of the world and so filled with joy I thought I would burst. I’ve read more, laughed more, cried more and loved more in the past year than I have in a long time.
The year 2016 was a really horrible year for many, many people, but in its horribleness, I found some really good things. I became more in tune with myself. I have learned to recognise when my demons attack and how to live through them. I have learned how to communicate what I need in terms of support to my loved ones.
I am learning to pick my battles. I am learning to give myself “me time,” to recoup, relax and to give myself rest. I am learning my worth and that I am worthy of respect. I am learning not to let people, even those who are closest to me, walk all over me. I am learning to love myself a little more every day.
It’s been a really hard year. Yet, we have survived. We are here. We are alive. We made it. If we can make it through this messed up, difficult as hell year while fighting and surviving our demons, then I’m pretty sure we can get through anything.
So, when I raised a glass to toast the new year, I toasted one for you all as well. We did one hell of a good job getting through 2016. Well done! Good luck as we begin the trek through 2017. We got this. Happy New Year, my fellow survivors.