Hi Shani , loneliness is not new to everyone. Everyone can get lonely, including married people. So do not look to a marriage or a relationship to end it all, because it will not happen. It may solve your temporal loneliness, but never the deep empty lonely soul for long.
That can only be filled by Jesus. Trust God to meet your need of a life-partner in His time. God also needs time to arrange and ordain the chosen man and then to bring him to you. Meanwhile continue to lean upon His love and His fellowship.
In His time, God will make all things beautiful.
From Hwa Silverpen
Ah Sweetie... .
I am sending you a huge hug right now! I am remembering right now of a time that I was in church after one of my chemo treatments. The worst one I had actually. The inside of my very bones hurt as a powerful drug called Neulasta (it is $5,000.00 US dollars a shot and requires a specially-trained nurse to give it) wrecked havoc on my bones as it worked to stimulate accelerated blood cell production. Trust me. It hurts something terrible... like nothing I've ever felt before.
Standing there in horrible pain, broken, sick and bald, I suddenly felt the presence of God and... He seemed to be looking straight at me! I cringed Shani, I really did for as silly as it seems, I didn't want anyone, even God to look at me. Oh, how He gently spoke to me and whispered my name. He wanted to know what was wrong. I told Him I didn't want him to see me like this. He asked me why and I told Him I was too ugly. Oh... I will never forget this Shani. He told me all He saw was His beautiful precious ! This is for all of us!
Come and meet my son. He's 23, single and lonely too. His mother has taught him to be a great husband! He cooks and does laundry!
Thank you for this beautiful blog. I'm glad you published it. I wish I had been as wise and spiritually mature as you are when I was your age.