i just dont get it
i sat beside mum tonight, as she lay in the hospital bed. She can barely move, open her eyes or talk, however she found it somewhere in her to reach over and hold my hand. between the tears we both shared, she reminded me that she loved me soo much and was glad that i decided to come home.

If you dont know, Australia just suffered a massive flood which ruined thousands of homes and took the lives of quite a few people. My mum, as part of her job, went up to where it all happened to help with community recovery. She held the hands of many australian famillies who had just lost their homes, their money, their pets, and for some, their family. she laughed with them, cried with them, listened to them and came alongside them to help in any way she possibly could. Unfortunately, whilst up there, she also picked up Hepatitis A and my word has it made her incredibly sick.

Mum came home last saturday, and sunday she woke up feeling very off. She thought if she got some sleep, she would be fine. by 11am she had turned a nice shade of yellow, her temp was sky high, she was achey and her head was throbbing. not being able to get into the doctors, she went off to hospital with hope that they would give her some medicine and send her back to bed. Obviously this didnt happen. she is still in hospital and the drs are saying she will be there for another 2 weeks minimum. I know hospital is the best place for her, but i just want my mum home now.

I know that in a few weeks, she will be fine but im really struggling. I cant find that silver lining that everyone says 'exists somewhere'.Im finding it really hard to not be angry. Mum just went away and did a wonderful thing for people who have just lost everything.. and now she is struck down with this. i know its not a healthy mind set, but i cant shake this thinking. i know somewhere in me that God knows what is going on, I know that He is in control and i know He will see us through,.. but to be honest im not sure if i believe it in my heart. The hardest part for me, is sitting there watching her struggle and knowing that nothing i can do, is gonna take the pain away. Ive lost count of the amount of times ive prayed for God to just give her some relief in any way shape or form. Im just exhausted with everything and cant wait for the day where everything just goes smooth for abit. He knows when ive come to my limit. So, for now, i will just rest on abit of scripture that has been my mantra for when the times are tough.

Matthew 28:11 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest

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Alison Stewart

Shani, my dear dear friend. I wish I could be with you as you support your Mum.

Lord, I ask that you wrap your arms of love around Shani as she goes through yet another difficult period. As Shani supports her mum I ask that Mum really sees the love of Jesus pouring forth from Shani's heart. Lord, I ask for your healing touch to be upon Mum. Lord, please take away the pain and sickness so that she can get back to her life..her family. This lady has become sick serving those who have needed so much help and Lord I just want to ask you to heal her. May she know the blessings of God in her life in the same way that she has seen fit to serve other. Please, Jesus. Amen

Got your back, girlfriend

Mark Martin

God in heaven , thru you all things are possible and it is your best, you wish us to reiveve, it is this Father I ask you to give Shani's mum, your best , our Savior and great Physician, Jesus, please heal this one who reached out to help those in need, that gave not care aboout her well being and put your command to serve others above her own well being, please help all those concerned about her, give them commfort, let them know you hear our prayers and give them encouragment, In Jesus's name I pray, amen

John Vorhees

Shani - the 23rd Psalm says that "even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death... ", we walk through the calamities and illnesses of life, and don't camp out there. We know that good times are just ahead. If it wasn't for the valleys of our lives, there would be no mountaintops! The great continent and country of Australia will recover from this devastation in good stead and strong resolve. Your mother will soon forget her pain and suffering, and will be back to help in the recovery effort. In the meanwhile the Lord will protect, heal, and watch over your mother. Jeremiah 29:11-14(a) says "For I know the plans I have for you,€ declares the LORD, €œplans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,€ declares the LORD... I will continue to pray for your mom's recovery and that she will find the Lord in all this. John1515

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Linda Young


I am so sorry for your mum's illness and your pain.

Sometimes it's very hard to reconcile our faith in our just and loving God, with the worldly philosophy of doing good things ought to mean you get good things in return. I mean seriously, your mum was doing excellently good things, and you've been thrown a curve ball.

It may be something as simple as there is someone in the hospital that God wants you to minister to. Keep your eyes open.

And know that you and mum are being covered in prayer.



Hey guys..

thanks for the encouragement! means a heap to me. and gracie, maybe you are right :)
Back to the hospital i go.


Dearest Shani, So glad this came up on Random Blog... I have said it so many times: so many blogs, too little time! I realize this is over a year old, but my heart still goes out to you, Lovely! It IS so very hard to see bad things happen to good people, to put it simply. We do have an enemy out there; that is why we so look forward to Eternity, where there will be no more death, no more sorrow, no more sickness. God allowed Satan to afflict Job, point being that Satan did the afflicting. Now we see in a glass darkly... but we shall understand it all, by and by. blessings, Lovely! :heart: blessings, blest