"When I feel like stuff is crashing down all around me, I remember and hold on to Gods promise that He will meet me in that place : Psalm 46:10: Be still and know that I am God. So here I am, trying to be still and taking lessons from the King."
This is exactly what we were talking about last night at midweek. We were talking about the Joy of the spirit and how that joy is all but depleted when one struggles with anxiety, depression or severe trauma. Me, in my nice way said that anyone who told someone they had to have joy and an active devotional life when that someone is ill needed a good slap or two. ( my exact words ) .
But you my darlin' have it spot on. You are holding on to what you know ( I know, I know I messaged you this earlier, but this is for others too) . When you can't feel it, you go to your foundation. Again I say it, holding on by your finger nails can be the most difficult thing we do at times. When the silence brings memories that make us feel as if we are drowning and cause a panic attack, when the silence terrifies us holding on is worthy of a Victoria Cross medal.
But then we can do nothing else but hold on and remember that HE too holds onto us.
So proud of you for this blog. So proud.
I will say three simple things
I will pray for you continually.
Blog more often and share the load for my back is strong enough to carry your share.
God never leaves us; in our silences/valleys he is there inside your spirit.
As Bethy says so proud
Oops that's 4 points = forgive me
When someone is ill, whether it is physically, mentally, emotionally or all of them, the last thing they need is a lecture or catch phrases. What they need is to be held so that they know you care and that they are loved. I think this is the single most important thing we can do and it must be our first step. When you think about it, this is exactly what God does. He doesn't condemn us, He doesn't give us a lecture but He simply loves us and holds us. The other stuff, there is time for that later.
Thanks for writing this my dear. I get you and it makes perfect sense.
Makes me think about Elijah in 1 Kings 19. When the angel came to him he did not give him a book of devotionals or tell him to listen to some Lecrae and he'd feel better. He didn't lecture him or tell him to man up. Eat and sleep were his orders. It's that basic sometimes as we need to take a total 'time out' and regain our strength, to get the train back on the rails ... according to God's schedule and with His help.
When I read the OT and see great kings and prophets wailing and crying, fit for nothing, I remember there is no shame, none at all, when the same things happen to us. If they were courageous, and we know that they were, then we know that you are too. John Wayne has nothing on our Shani.
So ... go easy on yourself, just rest and eat and take your time to get better. We will hold up your arms lovey and pray for God to heal you, and help you, and show you His kindness.
You are His - "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" - that is His promise to all of His children.