The anger and wrath of God - a personal experience
I want to share one deep and life changing experience I have had in 1989 when I became a Christian again after 3 years of straying and leaving the Lord. This is a very private and a very profound experience in my Christian walk. It has had left a very deep unforgettable footprint on the tablet of my heart.

I have never told anyone or any family members, though three-quarter of my immediate family are Christians. I just could not get myself to tell anyone , because not many would understand me well as I would be crying half-way through. The best is to write it down.

So I decided to pen it down on this blog , at least others will know of the great love and forgiveness our Heavenly Father has for His children because I have experienced it. I tell myself that I must do it before I leave this world, because no one knows how long or short our individual life is, and I may never have another such opportunity. So I must pen it down and and pen it here.

OK, so much for all the introduction.

After 3 years of Buddhist and part Toaist faith in 1984 to 1986, I came back to Jesus through a strange experience which I described in my testimony. It was difficult to believe Jesus is the True God in my earlier years when I was confronted by many types of Chinese gods here in Singapore.

The Chinese worshipped all kinds of gods ,even gods that are worshipped by the Hindus. Their mediums who are their servants , can speak to their devotees and guide them through fortune-telling with their utterances and palmistry, etc. Coupled with this kind of environment, my grand aunt was a medium for the chinese god of the disciple of the Toaist goddess of mercy, Kuan Yin

After I became a Christian again ,the sickness that plagued me ,went away with medication.I started going to church, it was the first time I heard of the charismatic movement. The Charismatic movement seemed so foreign to me, though I went to church for about 13 years of my life. All those times, the God of the Bible seemed so detached, there was no personal relationship with Him.

Now in the new Christian environment, I began to rejoice in knowing the True and Living God. Everything seemed so wonderful, I felt I was on the top of the world. I found the True and Living God, finally.

But my new found joy was short-lived. After a few weeks, the sickness came back . I took the medication and recovered but for only for a short 2 weeks. It seemed to come back again and again, the same cycle went on for 3 months.

In the third month, I was desperate and I really cried hard to God, "please tell me what is wrong? What have I done wrong? "

Remember there was no one to teach me or guide me, except the Holy Spirit. I was new in the church and did not know where to get help.

On the morning of the 12th March 1989, I will remember this day to my deathbed, I was very depressed but I have to fetch my mum to buy food. Whilst she went to the supermarket, I waited in the car .

I prayed again. Then I began to hear the word , "It is the wrath of God, the anger of God, it is the wrath and anger of God ". It just went on and on for all the time I was in the car.

Suddenly, it occurred to me that the Lord was telling me that He was angry at me, the wrath of God was upon me. I was puzzled of what the Lord meant, I thought He had forgiven me when I returned to Him.

So I quickly went home and went up to my bedroom and prayed.

Then the revelation of the Lord came upon me. The Lord was telling me that He was angry that I have had worshipped many other gods other than Him for those years I left Him and He was very ,very angry at me, in spite that I had returned to His Faith.

I was surprised and taken aback. In all those years that I went to church for 13 years, no one, no pastors or any church leaders talked about the wrath of God, they only talked about the love of God. I thought God is a loving God, so why is He angry at me? Isn't God a God of Love?



Slowly it dawned on me that there is another side of our Heavenly Father that many Christians do not know or want to talk about it, or even recognise it. God can get angry at us, at our behaviours and even our attitudes. Especially when we sin, when we disobey, when we have a proud heart, when we are arrogant, and so forth. And escpecially when we have another god unknowingly or knowingly. God is a jealous God. Read Exodus 20: 5, it is in the Ten Commandments.

The Old Testament has so many such examples when God got angry at many peoples, like Moses, Aaron, David and many others. Even in the New Testament, when Ananias and Sapphira lied to Paul about the false giving to the church, they died immediately. Many of these people mentioned in the Bible even died at God's hand and at God' wrath.

God is no respector of person, He judges us according to His Holy standard. God has no favourite!

When I realised that, I started to cry and sob, I sobbed and wept so bitterly. I told the Lord that I was so sorry that I hurted Him, I did not know it was wrong to worship other gods as well ,and that I thought I was no longer a Christian, and that no one , not even a church pastor taught me that it was wrong in God's sight.

I wept for a long time, I felt so broken in my heart, just like David in Psalms 51. I wept until I could not weep any more. Even as I am writing this blog, I am weeping again, all these memories start to come back like a flood . Because Jesus has done a deep and profound work in my life then.

After crying for some time, I calmed down and then I decided to read the Bible.

When I came to the book of Hosea, chapter 11: 8 and 9 , these 2 verses just jumped up at me. The Lord said in these words:

How can I give you up, Ephraim?

How can I hand you over, Israel?

How can I treat you like Admah?

How can I make you like Zeboiim?

All my heart is changed within me;

All my compassion is aroused.

I will not carry out my fierce anger,

Nor will I turn and devastate Ephraim

These words were so personal to me, because as Ephraim was the second son of Joseph, I am the second child of a set of triplets. These 2 verses were really meant for me!

After these touching words from the Lord, I told the Lord that I meant business with Him, I would not worship any other god other than Jesus.I truly repented in my heart. Then I again took the medication. I want to testify that I have since recovered and to this day, almost 23 years later, this sickness has not returned. Praise the Lord. Praise God for keeping His promise to me. Praise the Lord for visiting me and teaching me in this special way that day.

That is why I love Jesus very much, because I have been forgiven much. Just as the woman who wiped the feet of Jesus with her hair and poured perfume on His feet.

The Bible says "her many sins have been forgiven- so she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little." Luke 7: 44 -48.

Thank you for this opportunity to pen this experience to record the marvellous work Jesus has done in my life.

I cannot stop loving Him. I bless our Heavenly Father, I bless Jesus , my Lord whom I love very much and I bless the Holy Spirit.

Thank you, Lord for this opportunity finally , after 23 years. AMEN

May God bless all who are reading my blog and may God bless all His children in His Kingdom,

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 Tan Yeowhwa
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Raynard Shellow

thank you for sharing this blog. it makes me more encouraged and humbled that you shared it, when you hear"speaches and reasons why others tell you they dont want to share anything about their daily walk and spiritual growth in christ.. be blessed

Tan Yeowhwa+

Thanks to ptl2008 and iraqivetsgtret for the encouragements, I need them. I am glad at least someone will bother to read and comment and encourage me along the way. May the Lord bless you each individually and bless your family.

May the Lord continue to be real and forgiving to us all,

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Olive Tree

Thank God that the spirit of conviction was on you that day, convicting you of how much our Papa is zealous that we love and worship Him only. As the Word exhorts in Joshua 24:14-15, Choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are livng. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD".

Thanks very much for sharing your experience which has left this deep imprint on you. Our Father is so merciful and gracious to all of us. If He remembers our sins, what will happen to all of us?

Keep on seeking Him with all your heart, 23 years later.

Tan Yeowhwa+

Thanks for your encouragement. :dance:Iti s good to know that how good and merciful our Heavenly Father is, yes, as for me and my house, we will only serve the Lord.AMEN:flower:

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Albert Bunyea

Preach it Sister, cuz someone needs to! Thank you for sharing this story with us. my fingers are rubbed raw from my writings on this topic. It pains me so to wonder why this side of our salvation is never told.

blessings,
bubba

Benjamin Foulks

I certainly can't challenge what you hear from God. Personally, I would never see God's 'wrath' upon His children. Jesus Christ bore that wrath on the cross. I do see a God that corrects us as a loving Heavenly Father. Such correction can be miserable and painful, but it for our own good. He is not judging us as His children... he is disciplining for our good and His Glory... at least that's how I see it.

Laudia Price

thank you so much for sharingthat testimony. Yes, God is very real in the emotions he expresses towards us . Such as his infinite love, Godly anger, and sadness over us.

Monique Van

Thankyou for this, I love hearing great testimonies of how God speaks and the little things he does to show us how real he is. One night i started dealing with anxiety for the very first time and i had on two rings that my sons dad had given me while we were outside the will of God... i had been praying and asking God to make my sons dad the man he needs to be and make us a family. So the night a got anxiety i was shaking with fear and worry and didnt know why... so i started praying and asking God what do i have to do to be released of this worry and then God put it in my mind to take off the rings... i looked down at my hand and took off the rings and stopped shaking immediately.I remember that night like it was yesterday how God spoke to me and i truly rejoiced for the first time like never before and was filled with the hold spirit that made me want to dance so i turned it to the christian station and a song called "blessings" by laura story came on and i cried my eyes out to that song then a song came on called "before the morning" by josh wilson and both songs were like Gods promise of what was to come if i allow him in my life. After that night i started dealing with negative thoughts, depression and anxiety but many scary days and nights have passed me by and God has spoken and promised different things to me

John Knox+

I have just come across your blog regarding the wrath of God. I cannot say that I have experienced such a side of God, but I do know that there have been times when God has seemed so far away and I have feltt so alone. Thanks for reminding us of this side of God which many of us have expected to only belong to the OT not under the new covenant.

Blessing grace and truth be upon you.

watchmanjohn