I had the most peaceful rest this past evening, thank you for you prayers. I have had been picking up the habit of complaing to my Lord on many issues, from one end of my life to the other, from little to great! I picked up my bible and turned to the Parable of the woman who broke the alabaster jar and annoited Jesus feet with the aromatic ointment. And I couldn't see the meaning at first. But then it came to me. I was thinking of all the people who either take Jesus and his word lightly or don't care much for him and his message at all... Why did it have to be a woman of a bad reputation who had the perhaps gall to embrace Jesus feet and kiss them and annoited them with her treasure? And I thought about me and my complaining and how I had suggested an alternate plan for my life to the Lord. And I said to my Lord, "I'm lonely", "I'm weary", "I'm sick", "I'm weary", "I'm offended", "I'm treated low" and so on! And it had never occured to me to think and perceive and tell my Lord, "I know, you know, that you see, that you understand, that you are weary, of everything that happens to me and the whole world...!" I really hadn't thought I was suggesting that my God, that he perhaps was not the all souverign Lord of all the earth! And I thought in my heart this morning that I did not a have an alabaster Jar to break and annoit my Lord and his feet. But if I just give him his place as Diety and Lord of Heaven and Earth! And later I began to see that it pleased my God to not lower him down from his lofty throne and accrue him the glory and the Praise that is due to him... In the Parable of giving Ceasar his stuff and God his, I wasn't giving my God what I owed him and doubted him with my qualms and complains, like if he did not know what was going on my life! In the past God warned as of the greated travesty it is to say that God does not see and the he had departed the land. We turn to Ezekiel 8:12-13, ["... 12Then said he unto me, Son of man, hast thou seen what the ancients of the house of Israel do in the dark, every man in the chambers of his imagery? for they say, the LORD seeth us not; the LORD hath forsaken the earth. 13He said also unto me, Turn thee yet again, and thou shalt see greater abominations that they do..."] And I just gave great peace to give my Lord his place as all-knowing and that he knows what is going on in my life and that he is able to deal with the problems of mine, and our and everyones, that come day by day on the earth, little or small, small or great!... May you be blessed. Amen. thbg
And for me the test of faith comes with the dead hour of the day or night. I begin doubt wheter my God cares about me. And Satan visit me at the opportune moment, when I want to be romping on the meadows with my friends or just with nature outdoors in the daylight...it's dead night outside and there's no body around. I begin to doubt at that moment, wheter I living my life the way I should...
I can't sleep. I toss and turn and wonder and look at my watch and see 1:15 AM. What a dilema! Not knowing whethet to get up and take a shower and find a way to court some sleep! I look at all my bible and can't see clearly the message! But then I begin to bargain with my Lord and say, "We won't be able to serve you if you let Satan do as he pleases with our peace!..."
I look at the wooden crosses at on the wall of my room and try to remind myself, what this game is all about! And the Lord remind me that those who deal with the truth will not get all that too many commendations and fellowships with the spirit of this world. And I settle back and see that the Lord really knows what the situation is and that he wants us to see with him, him who opposes all sorts of deliverance...
And then I sink back into my pillow and have peace that all of this is for a reason. And the opposition will not let you sleep and make every effort to make the truth peoples lives unconfortable! But if we know that our Lord sees and that he has not departed the earth, why that lullyby we can sleep to and we know God is in control...!
May you be blessed. Amen.