All through my time of struggling to decide my prostate cancer options the Lord has been quietly saying to me that He is Faithful. What does this mean? How can this be helpful in deciding surgery or radiotherapy?
The Holy Spirit reminded me of the time when we read of the cries, of the Israelites that finally reached the ears of God, as they cried out to him in their slavery. Exodus 3:9. As I pondered this revelation I could not fail to remember that it took Yahweh, some 400 years to respond to his children's cries. One would have hoped that God would respond sooner to one's plight.
I thought of the many believers who having been told that God is faithful who still have not seen any supernatural respite. 'How long Lord' they cry.
I would hope, that there would have been a number of Israelites tramping the mud and straw, who were not given over to despair, so that Yahweh would have at least, acted out of pity for those handful of righteous ones.
God is faithful 'Yea right,' Even quoting the passage of scripture that Gods ways are not our ways and a 1,000 years in Gods sight is, but a day; does not lighten the load of despair.
Holding these disturbing thoughts and my prayers before Gods throne, these revelatory thoughts came to me.
Our time in the place of hurting will not overwhelm us, for we have been promised that God will not leave or forsake his children as they are in the palm of his hand. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. John 14
Our time in the hurting place can become a time of intimacy with our Father, as long as we stay in the eye of the storm. Remember, Jesus was at peace in the stern of the boat while the disciples went through their cycles of despair. Jesus said that My peace I leave with you, my peace if give you. Focus on the promises of God rather than your storm. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4
Our time in the place of despair will become a season of authority and victory, for the Authority and Victory has already been obtained for us through the cross. Let us not be like the Children of Israel, who refused through unbelief, to take the land that God had given them; because they saw themselves as grasshoppers. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15.
To use a famous line from Charles Dickens this time a decision has been 'the best of times and the worst of times.'
Looking back in the future I am sure I will recall this time, as the season of the opening of the ancient doors. God in his grace will use this affliction to bring me closer into a communion with himself, and a deeper understanding of his Word.
I am grateful and full of praise that the Holy Spirit has nudged me into the direction of the hormone and radio therapy option; for he will sanctify this treatment with his glory and who knows the number and intensity of 'supernatural' outcomes.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalm 91
As an 11 year cancer survivor, I know from personal experience that He will! Though it is not cancer for me this time, I too am facing a "new season" fraught with uncertainty. Only this time I am a bystander who is struggling to remember to lift up my hands in praise as well as prayer instead of wringing them in despair. Your blog encouraged me to remember the faithfulness of God which never changes. Thank you.
I am praying this will be true in my life as well with the DVT facing me at this time. May I focus on the Lord's promises in the midst of the storm. Thank you for this word.