I really don;t know how to start this blog out, I have a lot to say, but no idea where to begin. I think I will start with a story.. As some of you know, my last relationship with a great guy, ended badly. We had been together almost two years when the breakup came. I couldn't believe there was anyone out there in the big world for me. He was the "only one". Months went by, I went on a somewhat blind date and fell in love again. Beau was my best friend, he made me feel like I was special and worth loving. He was there through the ups and downs of my life. We grew in love for each other and in awe of God together. Seeing how He works everything for our good was so visible. We both didnt see this coming that first date. During the nine months of Beau and I dating, I moved out of my parents house to an nice apartment literally across the street from Beau. I got a second cat and I started learning how hard it is to be on my own. Beau was a Godsend. He was there every day, helping where he could and encouraging me. I went on a Missions Trip to Belize and fell in love with the people there. The week away from each other just grew our love stronger. Our nine months were wonderful, and every day with him is a continued blessing. New Years Eve rolled around. The whole week of he had been acting weird. He wasnttelling me anything. I was very upset. We were celebrating the New Year at his grandmothers house. He wanted to go out on his family's Gator ( its kinda like a golf cart with a small truck bed in the back).He wanted to remember the first time we took a ride, a week into us dating, and how we sat out under the stars and got to know each other. I wasn't really feeling it. It was raining and cold, but I said ok. We bundled up and went out to the middle of a corn field. He stopped the gator and told me to get out. He had something to tell me. I got out of the gator and he got down on one knee and brought out the most beautiful ring and asked me to marry him. Of course I said yes. Now I am planning our wedding... I know our relationship is far from perfect, I know our married life is going to have many ups and downs. But when you are with the person you know you're supposed to be with it is worth it. God has been so gracious. I have never seen his grace so poured out before in my life. I haven't been reading my Bible as much as I should be, but he wants me to want to read it, desire to spend time with him, and I have been lately. What amazes me every day bout God, is how even if I don't read my Bible, even if my prayer life is little, He still blesses. I praise God everyday. Basically God wants a relationship with us, He wants us to call Him daddy and tell him all our problems. He doesn't want us to feel obligated to do anything, He wants us to want to spend time with Him because that is the best time you will have with your Father. God has gievn us so much to enjoy in this world. He wants us to enjoy it, make a difference with kindness and to love without stopping. I am not saying "Don't read your BIble" I am saying look at the reason why you are reading it. Do you read it because you want to or because you think it is the right thing to do. I haev so much more to learn and I thank God for giving me everyday to learn and grow. I really don't know if any of this is making sense, I just needed to write.
Yes, it makes sense. God's love for us is not based on what we do (conditional), God loves us simply because we are... well... US! (unconditional). Oh how He delights in us responding to His love by spending time with Him and talking to Him. He longs for us to do that. How He rejoices when we respond to His love!
Oh, how His heart weeps and breaks when we are unresponsive to Him but does His love for us cease. No! Even if He must allow us to go our own way and suffer a great deal because we will not listen to Him, in other words learn things the hard way, His love for us still remains. That's why we call it "amazing love".
Sam, congratulations. You and beau look like such a well matched couple.
A wedding to prepare eh... wow that will be fun.
And you are so right, God will bless us no matter what, because he can do no other. He looks at us and he sees the rightousness of Christ.. and thats what I call grace.
Sam I've missed talking with you!! So good to see you here. :) Congrats!!