My Bible Study group has been doing a book on prayer and it has been very good for my walk. Last night we talked about "Painfully Honest Prayers." This really hit home for me. During my break up last NOvember and the follow 3 or 4 months after, I had to learn to pray painfully honest prayers. I would hide my true feelings from God, from my friends, and from myself. But I realized that the more and more I pushed my true feelings away, the harder the pain was to deal with. We read Jeremiah 20: Jeremiah 20:7-18 7 O LORD, You induced me, and I was persuaded; You are stronger than I, and have prevailed. I am in derision daily; Everyone mocks me. 8 For when I spoke, I cried out; I shouted, “Violence and plunder!” Because the word of the LORD was made to me A reproach and a derision daily. 9 Then I said, “I will not make mention of Him, Nor speak anymore in His name.” But His word was in my heart like a burning fire Shut up in my bones; I was weary of holding it back, And I could not. 10 For I heard many mocking: “ Fear on every side!” “ Report,” they say, “and we will report it!” All my acquaintances watched for my stumbling, saying, “ Perhaps he can be induced; Then we will prevail against him, And we will take our revenge on him.” 11 But the LORD is with me as a mighty, awesome One. Therefore my persecutors will stumble, and will not prevail. They will be greatly ashamed, for they will not prosper. Their everlasting confusion will never be forgotten. 12 But, O LORD of hosts, You who test the righteous, And see the mind and heart, Let me see Your vengeance on them; For I have pleaded my cause before You. 13 Sing to the LORD! Praise the LORD! For He has delivered the life of the poor From the hand of evildoers. 14 Cursed be the day in which I was born! Let the day not be blessed in which my mother bore me! 15 Let the man be cursed Who brought news to my father, saying, “ A male child has been born to you!” Making him very glad. 16 And let that man be like the cities Which the LORD overthrew, and did not relent; Let him hear the cry in the morning And the shouting at noon, 17 Because he did not kill me from the womb, That my mother might have been my grave, And her womb always enlarged with me. 18 Why did I come forth from the womb to see labor and sorrow, That my days should be consumed with shame? Jeremiah was painfully honest with God. He was hurt, and he said. He wanted the people who hurt him destroyed. He told God how he felt and wasn't ashamed. God wants us to be like that, even though he already knows exactly what we are feeling. When we are open to God and ourselves we can heal better. After the breakup it took me a while to really open up to God, but once I finally did I finally was able to heal. We need to not be ashamed of how we feel, we have to be like Jeremiah and tell God exactly how we feel even if it might be wrong, we need to be honest.
A very good and wise lesson, Goldie. God created us, gave us the ability to feel emotions -- He has emotions Himself! Funny thing is, He already knows what we're feeling. We might as well go ahead and tell Him.
You are so right Goldie. Someone once told me that we have to give God our best and "our worst" also! He loves us. As we open-up our hearts to Him and honestly tell Him how we feel, He comforts us and sooths away our hurts... Thank you for this reminder and God bless.
How I have been learning to do this, especially when God told me I had to become vulnerable back in 2007. I have to tell you being open about things especially personal, painful things which in my case was breast cancer is NOT as easy as it may seem. However, I believe in the long run, it is easier than trying to hide it and stuff all the feelings down.
In my case, God has also provided me with a few friends, especially one in particular, who permit me to freely vent. They understand the importance of getting the "junk" moved out so that I can be healed/filled. They remind me of how God indeed hears my every cry and loves me even when I am unlovable!
But I have a question. Can we complain to God if we are suffering. But If we complain, God do not like it??? I think what I do is praise God no matter what happen bad or good in my life, no complaint. But that means we hide our feelings to God. So what is the right thing we should do?
Very nice Sam! I am glad you are sharing what you are learning with us during your walk. :)
Wow... awesome blog! thanks for sharing! I can totally relate to this blog. I have had to do some painful prayer recently but you just put the icing on the cake for me! :) Thanks Godbless