joyce

  I have been a member of ChristianBlog.Com for 9 years, 6 months and 12 days.

  I have published 121 blogs and 3,417 comments.

 My most recent blog was published: Feb 22 2018 10:07:52am

 I currently live in: United Kingdom.

 About joyce

convinced that nothing will separate her from the love of God.

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The land of ice.
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I think today I would like to live somewhere warmer.  Its cold where I live.  Its always cold.  The type of cold that gets into your very bones, it hurts, it paralyases and it is never satisfied.  I didn't always live in a cold country.  I used to thrive in the heat.  I used to lift my head to the warmth of the sun and feel its rays pushing genty against my skin.  I remember the feel of it on top of my head, on my feet as I played hop scotch on concrete slabs and on my bare legs as I sat in a vinyl seat covered car wishing that the sun was not so hot. They always say to be careful what you wish for for you may just get it.  How true they are!  For one day, with no termination notice, my sun disappeared.  I must have moved to a strange place where the sun cant reach for I......
Dwelling in ashes.
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I am not quite sure how yesterday turned into an ashes day, it just sorta crept up on me .  I went from perfume and dress clothes to cinders, ashes and sack cloth in the space of half an hour.  i went from sweetness and light to tears and tantrums at the flick of a switch.  I was a snivelling shaking mess and it was not pretty. I decided to tear up my garment of worship and put on a torn coat.  I ignored the sheen of my hair and tipped ashes all over myself. Not just any old ash mind you, ashes with cinders in them, ashes with bits of nails in them. Wet nasty ash that had been lying in a bucket .  Then I went and filled the bucket for later on in the day in case I needed more.  Because I was determined I would need more.  Please dont get me wrong its not that I enjoy dwelling in......
Grab a coffee and enjoy
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Sleeping has not been one of my strong points for a long long time.  I would drop off as soon as my head touched the pillow but within two hours I am awake.  So with that in mind my doctor decided I needed a little help in the form of a magic white tablet to knock me out and allow my brain to rest.  She also increased my dosage of crazy pills at the same time.  I have never taken a sleeping tablet before and was a little nervous at the thought.  Had been to my pals house and had a lovely evening, eating pizza and having jokes at her expense, came home and took my meds and my sleeping tablet and because we had only been in one anothers company for four hours I got on the messaging service and we started to chat again.  Or at least I think we chatted again.  For ten minutes after......
Pickled onions and their sting.
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I have a nasty little habit; Its not what you think, I dont gamble, I dont rob banks and I most certainly dont play golf.  What I do do though, is tear my lip.  I tear it until it is raw and then I tear it some more.  Only when it hurts to high heaven do I give it some respite.  As a woman I can legitimately wear lipstick to cover my habit when I go out, but in the home I really go to town on it.  Today my Elizabeth Arden plum lipstick is covering it up nicely and none need know I have canibalastic tendencies towards my lip.   Even I had forgotten for a time that it was and is quite sore today.  My counsellor tells me it is a form of self harm, that and choosing not to take my crazy pills .  But what does she know eh?  Anyhow back to the story in hand, or in mouth to be more......
Not as i do
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It is almost two twenty in the afternoon here in school and up to now it has been a rather nice day.  The kids have so far been behaving themselves and the Library is cosy and warm despite the best intentions of this winter storm trying to upset my bodys central heating.  When I say that the kids have been behaving I need to clarify that most of them have been behaving.  One boy whom I had not encountered before due to not being in senior school has been sent here for the duration of the junior internal exams .  For one reason or the other he is not sitting them now. So I have him for an entire week and he.. he has me !   Im not saying we have gotten off on the wrong foot but what i shall say is that he very nearly was on the end of said foot earlier.  Twice I moved him from......
3 things i have learned more about god the older i've gotten
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I remember myself as the young christian, constantly running around doing things for God and trying to split myself in two simply to please Him. I would like to have the opportunity to go back and tell my foolish self these things I have over the years come to realise and learn. My darling you do not have to work to gain God's Love.  You do not have to work at every organisation there is. You do not have to be the last out the door.  You do not have to beat yourself up if you dont read your scriptures every day.  You see my little one God loves you simply because he chose to love you. 1 John 4 :19 tells me that we love God because he first loved us.   Don't strive for love that is already yours.  Sweetheart, you spend so much time hiding who you really are that you are......
Choosing a title.
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Its funny in a strange old kind of way to sit and ponder a title for a blog.  What fits?  What makes sense?  How will it relate?  Today I sat and pondered my title.  Often I choose a title that gives the game away as to what the content will be.  But today, today I really cant think of one.   So I dont really have one. If I did have one, and I am only saying IF then it could be  "Here we go again" or Onward Christian soldiers or as we say here in Ireland "Wise the head".   So for those here who know me and have been wondering at the flurry of weird stetements coming from me recently I thought I would be as brave as our Shani and let you know where I am. I have Clinical Depression and PTSD .  The depression from things,  but the PTSD from stuff that......
Hiding the phone
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So today I woke up determined to hide my phone.  I was not going to bring it to work because I didn't want to have to take a phone call that I dread, dont expect to come yet know I need it.  I really thought it was a good idea. Out of sight and out of mind!  Perfect, sorted. Picked the phone up, opened the drawer, was half way to setting it down amidst half worn batteries, broken necklaces, small devotional and three odd socks when the thing went "bleep" . "Keep your phone with you today" .  Honestly, seriously what is it with people that they know what Im thinking before I do.  Posting it to Borneo didnt work out partly because I spelled borneo wrong and partly because how was I going to check fb if it was somewhere over the ocean in a big jet plane. So it is......
Hedgehogs and cowards
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My dog is a bit of a coward.  She likes to pretend she is otherwise but her bravery deserts her when she comes face to face with an empty cardboard tube, a floor brush, a cordless dyson,  a cushion and a hedgehog.  Yup, you heard me right; my dog is afraid of hedgehogs.  how do I know this you ask?  well I am glad you asked.  It's because there is a hedgehog living under her kennel, a hedgehog whom my husband has named Henry.  Henry pokes his wee nose ( we took it for granted it was a him), out from under the kennel and waddles over to the dish where Jenny, our dog, has her dried food.  Henry then proceeds to eat the food.  Meanwhile Jenny cowers in her bed crying and screaming. Oh yes, did you not realise that a dog could scream?  They can.  She refuses to stop until we......
Brand new career
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So today I have decided that I am in the wrong job. It is quiet in the library so I was flicking through images of the revolutions in Russia and reading of the impact on the people there 100 years on from those two events. But that enthusium waned after a while so I started to read about houses and that led to certain people I don't really approve of which in turn led to the mansions of the Televangelist. Folks, we are in the wrong business! Why didnt we think of it before ? What is wrong with us? Here's us scrimping and saving, working and toiling and what do we get? Calluses, thats what. That may be an over exaggeration, but I could break a nail and at ten quid a smack for gel nails that is nothing to roll your eyes at. So Im changing my job. Starting tomorrow I am going to get......
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