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 My most recent blog was published: Sep 11 2017 11:53:14pm

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  Mental Illness, Love, Healing, and Christian's

Mental Illness as a real life issue. Christian's preconceived perceptions and expectations. How God' in boxed into "healing" or working in the manner we determine, even "twisting" His arm as how healing looks based on scripture. Contrasting this with the call to love God, the brethren, those not knowing Christ, and becoming more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Encouraging and loving in and to Christ those who suffer, mental disorders of anxiety, depression, bi-polar, etc. Also Dementia, Alzheimer's and other physical brin bio-chemical and neurological diseases.

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A firm but gentle holy spirit (christians, mental illness, job descrption cont.)
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(Note: Many of you've read this blog and may not want too again but I hope you listen to the song added. When first written, I didn't know how to import songs, this is a favorite many years andseems to be a recurring thread in many writings the past weeks. Hope it ministers to you as much as it has me.) Reading your comments on "Christians, Mental Illness and Job Description", you brought tears to my eyes. Paul considered his sufferings” light afflictions” while beaten and shipwrecked three times, also stoned and left for dead (II Cor. 4, II Cor. 11). I read of great trials and suffering many of you are living with or have been through. I thought why (did) do I complain so quickly and much? Easy, I don't want God to reveal my selfishness and wicked heart.......
Christians, mental illness and job description (conclusion)
Les B+
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Finally, I'm concluding Christians, Mental Illness, and Job Description! I suggested three things which Disciples of Christ are called in a “Job Description” : 1.) Love God with all our being 2.) Love our neighbor as ourselves 3.) Love one another as Jesus loved us so the world knows were His disciples. (Matt. 22: 37-39, John 13:34 -35) A question arose. Where is the Great Commission (Matt. 28: 19 20; go and make disciples of all nations ... teaching them to observe all I commanded you)? God's not afraid of my questions and answered. I can go into all nations but will never make a true disciple of Christ. Only the Holy Spirit through the resurrected power of Jesus, can make true disciples using a life yielded to God. I'd make religious converts looking like me, not......
"high maintenance christians," reality, and what to do?
Les B+
published . 4 min read
PREFACE What you read is 180 degrees turned “upside down” to the original outline. The Holy Spirit took an “opening” to convict and place light on my heart. As a “High Maintenance Christian” (+40 years of chronic disorders and pain), I intented to'graciously' prepare a framework of how 'you' could show more love to me. God thought otherwise, firmly delivering a message. I wanted “His job” (convict John 16:8) and not mine (love regardless of the weight with which I live I Cor. 13:7; I Cor. 16:13, 14). “High Maintenance Christians,” Reality, and What to Do? I've drafted and redrafted on this subject multiple times the past week. The “starts and stops” have been from constraints of the Holy Spirit. I say,......
Honoring a life lived well
Les B+
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In it Might Be My Last with great intent, I made clear the role of my doctor of 22 years. I wanted to honor her mentioning no names, for her only desire is to give glory to God and Minister Christ. Now in her early 70's still practicing, viewing people as Jesus, no “lost causes.” No one is beyond the reach of the Resurrected love and power of Christ! Will we be His hands and feet? In my experience today, I receive more compassion in battling my daily illness from non-believers than Christians. Why? The answer over the years is simple. Regardless of where on the theological spectrum regarding Christians with mental disorders; the need to be “right” (whatever the “biblical interpretation” ), outweighs the fallen world reality of those suffering before their......
What we want - what god desires to give
Les B+
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I'm unsure how to start a blog series other than fear in The Lord. Besides Him (if you choose to 'muddle' along), thank the W3 (Wonderful Women of the Word) as I now dubbed and John Abela. Both need prayers like my son said for his older sister when about 5 or 6. He asked God for her “to get baptized so she would be nicer” to him. I think that's a splendid idea for each of the above! I asked how to start a blog series. Kindly I thought at the time, one of the W3 of CB explained. Several 'ganged' up and said write one, write one, write one. All the time I'm saying to God, this isn't a good idea and you really don't want me too. Then John has the site set for blog series. He knows I shouldn't write any. Pray for them. Pray really hard for......
I don t want to write - idle words life really, really hurts jesus really, really heals
Les B+
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Matt. 12:36 “But I say to you that for every idle word men may speak, they will give account of it in the day of judgment.” If this were “Celebrate Recovery,” here is the first half of my “testimony.” Those referenced are forgiven and are prayed for consistently. Care has been taken, ensuring my 83 year old mother does not read this, serving no purpose of love to draw her to Christ. Though terrified, to be a released in writing further, I offer a prayer and bit of life story for God to use. To bring greater love, sensitivity, and healing in the body of Christ. I was raised in a “Christian” home in the US “Bible Belt.” At age 5, I began saying, “I wish I was never born.” My mom's response? “I said the said the same thing......
Life really hurts god really answers prayer; jesus really, really heals
Les B+
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Rev. 21: 3 5, 7 ... “He will dwell among them, and they shall be His people, and God Himself will be among them, and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away.” And He who sits on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new ... I will give to the one who thirsts from the spring of the water of life without cost.” I intentionally did not dwell on the abuse or years of “hedonism” in the first half. A general audience “gets the picture” without digging into how “deep into the gutter” one's life went. Satan already gets enough “press.” I desire to bring glory and honor to an ever loving,......
Pontificating points, does anyone care, or living the love of god?
Les B+
published . 5 min read
John 13:35 “By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another." (NASB) I returned from my doctor's appointment yesterday. Her ultimatum, I must find a consistent regular 'counselor' and group support/accountability partner along with increasing mood stabilizers to their maximum dosage with improvement ... or into the hospital I go. She was ready to put me there yesterday. I told her I know the drill if done. After 72 hours, unless you are a threat to yourself or someone else, you are released. It is easy enough to talk your way out, just say 'I'm good now.' (Footnote - though not a Christian, she called early before any appoitments started just to see how I was doing and offer other resouces than those yesterday .........
Thank you for being my true family so loving and patient
Les B+
published . 4 min read
I break radio silence due to your love, patience, and care. All I can say is thank you. Several went to unimaginable lengths reaching out, melting my heart and bringing tears. Researching adverse reactions to medications my doctor prescribed in July and again this past month brought much understanding. The biggest concerns differed with each. Doctors are required to highlight potential severe and even fatal reactions. The US Food and Drug Administration require reporting of potential hazardous or fatal consequences of prescription medication for patient awareness. Doctors highlight out of concern and insurance companies required to protect against medical malpractice lawsuits. The patient is left sifting through pharmacology inserts on less serious effects. The population reported 20% -......
God's love and encouragement for you
Les B+
published . 3 min read
I write this for all, though particularly believers struggling with major mental health disorders. I returned from a one and a half hour drive each way, for a doctor's appointment. They were pleased (not as much as I), my emotional state greatly improved from over two months ago. This time of year brings seasonal affective disorder (SAD), on top of major depression. I know 98% of the population, including the Christian community does not understand this well. The Lord gave great encouragement, though each day is a mental and physical battle. Many have said I lack faith to be healed. If not faith healing, then absent of a true salvation experience. He sets all things right. Jesus healed for what purpose? If you say to fulfill prophecy, correct though it was fulfilled in healing one......
Do not be anxious?
Les B+
published . 4 min read
Matt. 6: 31 34 “Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat? or What will we drink? or What will we wear for clothing?' "For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (NASB) This passage was one which always caused personal angst. Being diagnosed with a major anxiety disorder and panic attacks, I asked the Lord many times how He could command this of me. It really seemed 'unfair.' Several inquiries were made with no answer. Finally, only as God can speaking to my heart. The Lord made......
If you cannot see or hear what do you do?
Les B+
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Prov. 22:6 “Train up a child in the way he should go, even when he is old he will not depart from it.” (NASB) The question in the title was posed from our pastor in Portland to his best friend. They attended Bible College together and Roy shepherded a thriving church in Eugene, OR. He flew a single engine prop plane. Approved for both Visual and Instrument Rated Flying (VRF & IRF). When asked the question by Ron, he replied simply. You do what you were trained, taught, and practiced over the years. Both served on the international denomination's Board Of Directors. Roy would make the 5 hour flight to Los Angeles for monthly board meetings with great happiness in his single engine plane over a 2 hour commercial jet. He got the opportunity for two things enjoyed most;......
What are you afraid of?
Les B+
published . 4 min read
Jer. 6:13, 14 “For from the least of them even to the greatest of them, Everyone is greedy for gain ... “They have healed the brokenness of My people superficially, Saying, 'Peace, peace,' But there is no peace.” (NASB) I attended the initial meeting of © Celebrate Recovery (CR) of a church in our suburb two nights ago. My experience at another for six months several years ago left low expectations. There were multiple leadership changes and no adherence to the guidelines of 'cross talk' and 'fixing' others. Alcoholics Anonymous moved from being a Christ centered 12 step plan for freedom, to being based on a 'higher power.' Saddleback Church in Los Angeles developed a template to direct those who willing choose Christ's strength and......
When you can not sleep
Les B+
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Psa. 4:8 - "In peace I will both lie down and sleep, For You alone, O Lord, make me to dwell in safety" (NASB) At a doctor's appointment ten days ago, medication used to control both major bio-chemical anxiety and depressive disorders was adjusted again. One complete week of sleeping no more than 4 hours in a night followed. Exacerbating the condition, the medications used in treatment have adverse effects replicating the disorders or if not correct, worsening symptoms. Knowing medications specific for control of anxiety and allowing rest are easily overridden by more powerful "energizing' ones targeted at depression turned "bed time" into a dreaded time. Waking between 2 - 4 AM, all within my power was cry to out to God. Unable to sleep from this point......
It wasn't supposed to be this way
Les B+
published . 4 min read
Psa. 103:3 - "Who pardons all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases" (NASB) Does the Lord heal all our diseases? Yes and no and yes. Walking through grief the past weeks with degenerating health mentally and physically watching every facet of earthly life crumble, decay, and continue to fade away. Knowing many on this sight face life threating illness on a daily basis as do many around the world it seemed selfish. Stll, during growing years teaching became ingrained though now never intellectually subscribing too, commit your life to Christ and choose His ways- all will be well. I suppose Paul, the rest of the Apostles, and over 50,000 Christian "political prisoners" in North Korea did not get the health - wealth teaching memo. How our Lord Jesus turns......
Clarifying his call
Les B+
published . 3 min read
Col. 4:17 - "... Take heed to the ministry which you have received in the Lord, that you may fulfill it." (NASB) It is with great contriteness this is written for the hindrance and delay. Writing A Word to My Heart, God lead from a time of significant medical difficulty. The prompting to pen The Acts of Reluctant Apostle's He certainly placed on my heart, yet without seeming congruence. In conversations, people related negative experiences of other believers insisting a particular ministry they were in was the call for their life as well. If not done, you were outside of God's will. When related, it brought to mind past encounters with other Chistians literally saying if I was not knocking on doors, handing out tracts, street preaching, or in prison ministry ... it was......
A word to my heart
Les B+
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Jer. 32:27 - "Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me?" (NASB) Reflecting on the past five days, the Lord emphasized nothing is beyond Him. In Christ, He can touch any human heart no matter how "impossible" the circumstance seems. God called to mind a visit which petrified me at the time to a second cousin in the mid-1980's. A teenager living in Los Angeles, he attempted suicide by jumping from a bridge onto a freeway in the late 1960's. Surviving the jump and missed by interstate traffic the diagnosis was teenage Schizophrenia. He lived the remainder of life as a ward of California in a state of psychosis in a completely crumpled body. On a particular visit to the psychiatric ward of the hospital, we exchanged greetings......
I saw jesus today
Les B+
published . 4 min read
Romans 12: 15 - "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn." (NIV) A friend contacted me a couple of days ago delivering a simple message. To let me know they were contending before the Lord on my behalf and missed seeing me on CB. Knowing the struggle with clinical depression and anxiety disorders began in teen years with Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) making this time of year most difficult. Medication adjustments made nearly two and a half weeks ago still are not working and years taught the 'brain game" is as much art as science. The agenda was transparent. Merely communicate godly love, care, and prayers from The Father. No axes to grind on what is wrong in the world, church, Christians, politics, etc. Micah 4:3 - "They will beat their......